Love, Career and Marriage...

'This was the turn in my career I was waiting for, but never thought that I would feel so disappointed even after securing the most coveted position in corporate.'

Tarun was thinking, barely six months after he joined the Marketing division of a multinational company.

He couldn't marry Sonia, his steady girlfriend just because he was not sure about his career, but now Sonia was married and Tarun got the position he wanted. Still the ending was not happy, neither for Tarun nor for Sonia.

'Sonu, I am sorry, but I wanted to speak to you,' Tarun spoke after a lot of hesitation in dialing Sonia's number, 'Today is Valentines Day yaar, do you remember we were together this day, last year..?' He asked.

'Why have you called me? What do you want to speak, Tarun? You know I am married.' Sonia replied very blatantly.

'I know it's been three months you are Mrs. Mehta. But somehow I am not able to digest that you have left me. Still I just wanted to make sure you are happy.'

'What are you going to do now, if I say I am not.'

'Please Sonu, don't say like that. You don't know how upset I was, the day, you got married.' Tarun expressed his plight.

'Why? What was so disappointing about my marriage? Was it that I am going to sleep with someone else and not you?'

'C'mon yaar. It was not that. But the thought of you not being there for me was very painful.'

'But then it was you who showed the courage to separate when I was getting engaged. Isn't it?'

'Yeah, I agree. I also agree that I only suggested you to get engaged as I was not sure where my career is going to head.' Tarun admitted.

'But now you got the job that you always wanted to do, right?'

'Yes, I got the job, but lost you. In fact I lost everything after you left me..., hey, are you listening?'

'Yes, I am listening, exactly as I used to when we were in relationship. Never complained about anything, never ever..even when you said that you would forget me after I get married, I listened and believed,' Sonia replied without any emotions.

'Forgive me Sonu. I am sorry, if I am interfering in your married life.'

'Don't be sorry, Tarun. Frankly, I feel that my marriage has interfered in my life. I thought it will make my life easy and happy. But things are different,' Sonia seemed low, 'Anyways, how is your new role in new company?'

'Nothing great, Sonu. To be honest with you, it's disappointing. You know I was always a creative guy, but here there is no scope for creativity. I was fed up of being a Music Jockey, but now I feel I was happier being an MJ.'

'Oh! I thought that you were happy. So I never bothered you although I thought of you every day after we broke-up.'

'Did you really miss me, Sonu? I mean... is your husband not keeping you happy?'

'Oh shut up, Tarun. He is good. He cares for me, but not the way I want. After all, we are two different individuals. And I realised this very soon after marriage. We live away from our parents, but still the chemistry between us is not working out. I have left all my friends and family and feel lonely many times. In my heart I feel that my job is to just meet my husband's needs. Be it household chores or sharing the bed. But that's how the life of a married woman is. So I have to keep myself happy. No one can make you happy but yourself' Sonia's words hit Tarun's heart like an arrow.

'I want to see you, Sonu. Please don't say no.'

'That's not possible Tarun. Now I am married, and not like before,' Sonia refuted.

'Are you pregnant? I mean are you indicating something like that?'

'Oh! Don't talk rubbish, Tarun. Can't you think beyond Sex, even now?'

'I am sorry, but can we not meet for say half an hour?'

'And what are we going to do in that half and hour?'

'Just meeting..Sharing thoughts. I have so many experiences to share with you, as you were the only one with whom I could share everything without an worry of being judged. And I hope you would also have many things to tell,' Tarun spoke his mind.

'See Tarun, although I may like to share many things, I am not sure if I would be able to share with you, in fact there is no point sharing my experiences, because it is not going to change my relationship status.'

'Okay. I understand. But I seriously feel that we both are sailing in the same boat. I mean, I dreamt about this job, but after getting it, I am missing the charm of the old job now. You also got married to get settled in life, but not happy because you are still in love with your past.'

'May be you are right, but thinking about past is not going to do any good to my future. Still it felt good talking to you after so many months. I don't know why, may be the chemistry is still alive, but I don't wanna discuss it further,' Sonia expressed her feelings, ' Oh, my husband is at the door. I will have to hang up.'

'Sonu...'

Before Tarun could speak further, the call was disconnected.

Tarun was disappointed, for himself as well as for Sonu. He looked at her DP in his cellphone and murmured,

Thodasa main khafa ho gaya apne aap se, thodasa tujhpe bhi bewajah hi malaal aaye.